drowning

I feel like I am constantly drowning; drowning in school work; drowning in relationships; just drowning. I feel like each time I complete a task there is one lined up next and the line ever ends. 

I feel like I am merely tredding water on the weekdays, just managing to keep my head above and keep myself from slipping under. On the weekends I find the floor or dry land; I manage to get on top of things and the drowning sensation leaves. When Monday comes again and a new set of tasks wait me; the ground slips away from my feel and my life becomes unstable again. 

Maybe I feel this way because I have no place I belong at the moment. 

letting go

Before I started high school I was bewildered at the though of dropping out or even getting bad grades. I have always been in the top class for most of my subjects and gotten good grades. Not once had I ever though of flunking a test or assignment; I had always studied and completed it to the best of my ability. 

Now I just feel like letting go; being free; enjoying life as it comes; not worrying about homework or tests or assignments.

letting go.

darkness

When I was younger I was always afraid of the dark. I used to have a night light next to my bed, the door open with the light outside my room on and my wardrobe door firmly shut. I'm still not sure what I was afraid of, was it the monster under my bed? Or was he in my wardrobe or outside my room? Was I afraid of a murder coming into my room and kidnapping or murdering me? 

To this day I am still unsure why I was afraid of the dark, maybe I was afraid of the unknown.